It’s really hard to say goodbye if you don't want to go isn't it? It’s been a long time since I first feel this way and as day goes on, I keep on telling to myself that I have to move on and make some things on my own. No one knew how hard and painful it is but I keep on trying my very best to cope up and manage to face it on my own. Other people may say that I'm useless and childish but didn't feel the way I feel. Until now the pain is still fresh but who cares? I bet no one. There's no such reason to be mad or whatever but as we enter another step of our life we used to face the fact that we should try more in order to go into the flow of this lifetime.
Maybe being too kind is in my whole system, everybody thinks that I'm so weak for the reason that once in my life they saw me in blue, trying to end my life. They've got it all wrong, for me it’s a part of learning and process. All in all a part of my childhood experience. Perhaps I really looked like I'm dumb, fragile and so innocent but I have my own mind, my own dreams and all I want is a single chance. How can I show my abilities if some people were saying that I can't do it and I must follow what they want me to be?
Other might say that I'm doing things on my own, selfish and useless but who cares? They doesn't know me at all, even those person's that I think cared for me. Maybe they were just to blind to see things or whatever but no one ever care.
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